Have you ever been afraid to laugh? When you go through something really difficult, all of a sudden laughter becomes this enormous thing in your life.
Thinking about the last time you laughed before the really difficult time in your life, when you were so innocent and didn’t know what was coming.
Measuring your laughter – have I laughed enough lately? What is enough?
Noting your laughing – wow, it feels good to laugh again.
Unfortunately I know that many of you reading this have gone through a period in your life when you were afraid to laugh, when laughing was measured and noted. I hear you. I see you. I think what I see in your eyes is that this gets easier, and I hope that is true for me and you.
My laughter when I am with Wes is fairly unmeasured and goes without noting. It is essentially tangle free and very common with him.
Unless we are in the hospital, then I have to fight off the memories of laughing right before we got his diagnosis. But each time we go to the hospital, and each time we laugh while we are there, those memories get easier to keep down. Laughter is always more prevalent at the hospital when we have lots of company, so I am so grateful for my mom and my mother-in-law who come and sit with us for 6 hours each time Wes goes through chemo.
This picture is a bit fuzzy, but I love it anyway. I love that my mom and Wes are giving each other the scrunchy nose face. I hope it makes you laugh.